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In Transit
On his way to see Jonathan in
As it happened, Natalie was every bit as good-natured and outgoing as her Ukrainian cousin (or was it second cousin? Third?). She made it her special project to show him a good time while he was in
The climax of the evening was of course when Natalie took him to her favorite hip-hop nightclub where the music was louder and the lights infinitely more flashy than anything Alex had experienced even in
After a particularly blistering display of his dancing prowess (which he was happy to note left most of the clubs patrons gaping in disbelief) Alex, panting and sweaty, retreated to the quieter lounge area for a rest.
“I was very impressed by your dancing,” someone said. A man who seemed to hang back in the shadows.
“You should be,” Alex answered with his usual immodest bravado. “As the Sisters Sledge say I am the greatest dancer.” Only then did he realize the man had spoken to him in Ukrainian. “Are you from the
“Russian. My family comes from
“You know English than? Since we are in
“Whatever tongue you like is fine with me,” the stranger said speaking English now. He stepped forward into the light and Alex was able to get a look at him for the first time. He was a tall, lean man in dark clothes with greasy, slicked back hair and piercing blue eyes which fixed on Alex with a certain consuming intensity. He was also, as far as Alex was concerned, very old. Far too old to be taking up space in such a happening nightclub though it didn’t look like he had been dancing.
“I am Kirill,” the Russian man said taking the seat beside Alex, sitting so close in fact that their arms and thighs pressed together. It immediately became obvious that he was stinking drunk. He reeked of alcohol. It reminded Alex of home and even through he had left only two days before, a wave of nostalgia swept over him. He felt overwhelming warmth towards Kirill.
“I am Alex Perchov.”
“Alex Perchov. I will remember that name. You’ll be a star one day, the way you dance.”
“How did you surmise I was Ukrainian?” Alex asked. He had figured that wearing his very Western tracksuit and gold chains he would pass as a native.
“During your last dance you were yelling ‘can’t touch this’ in Ukrainian.”
“I guess that would make it exceedingly evident,” Alex said giving the man a crooked grin that seemed to utterly enchant him.
“You are a handsome boy, Alex Perchov.” Kirill said slowly, as if through a haze. He put his hand on Alex’s cheek, traced his thumb along his lip. “I don’t think I’ve seen a smile as real as yours in many years. The motherfuckers that I know, they only smile because they are plotting behind your back.”
“That is very vexing, that you are in the company of those who fuck mothers.” Alex said with sympathy. He thought little of Kirill’s caress. Alex was used to drunks being overly familiar. Besides, he enjoyed attention and was usually disappointed that he wasn’t receiving enough. With Kirill, it didn’t seem like that was going to be a problem.
“None of that matters,” Kirill said waving his hand dismissively. “Tell me about yourself, Alex Perchov. How long have you been in
“I arrived here only yesterday and will make my departure Tuesday. I am only pausing fleetingly, en route to my true destination,
“Your most intimate friend?”
“Yes, he is a collector, a writer, and also a Jew. He has been to the
“You carry your symbols with you, like our tattoos,” he muttered more to himself than to Alex. “It is good you have a friend. Friendship, it matters a great deal to me, more than anything. See that man in the corner, the man in the suit?” Kirill gestured towards a small group of older men who seemed extremely serious and not at all interested in dancing.
“The one with the face of death?’
“He is grim,” Kirill said with a smirk. “That’s Nikolai. He is my BFF, my most intimate friend and partner. He looks out for me. Right now he is talking to some men who used to do business with my father before he…retired. They do not think they can do business with me, but I know that Nikolai will convince them. A friend like Nikolai, who would die for you, that is very special. I’m glad you understand the importance of friendship.” Alex’s gold Star of David was still in his hand and he toyed with it, with the whole mass of gold chains hanging from Alex’s neck. “Maybe we could be friends, maybe intimate friends.”
Alex thought he sounded very sad.
“I am most welcoming of comradeship and involvement with others,” he said throwing his arm warmly around Kirill’s shoulders. Oddly, the gesture seemed to upset Kirill rather than soothe him. Although he had made every effort to touch Alex, he now jerked away from him. “What is the matter?”
“I hope you are not going to stay here,” he said sharply. “You should not stay in the West. Life is soft here, no one knows their place. It will make you weak and unmanly.”
“I must admit,” Alex said thoughtfully, “that my friend Jonathan does not seem like a proper man. He will not eat meat for sentimental reasons and is fastidious like a geriatric Grandmother. Still, I have learned that there are many habits of proper men that it would be superlative to see discarded. When I was in development, my father would give me the discipline of beating me up, as proper men do. Now though, I know that there are other ways to develop and I would wish those for my younger brother.”
“No,” Kirill said, bitter anger in his voice. “Your father’s way is right. That is how things must be. How else do you teach respect? We need to know shame and fear, which is what keeps us in line. If my father was here, do you think I would be talking to you like this? I wouldn’t dare…”
“I am uncomprehending. We are chatting in an affable manner, why would your father object?” Alex asked.
Then he looked in Kirill’s eyes.
Alex could be obtuse and self-involved, but even he couldn’t mistake the undisguised longing he saw there.
“Oh,” he said. “Oh.” He had no idea what to do but almost by instinct he reached out, put his hand on Kirill’s, which was clenched into a fist. “It is okay,” he said. “I am all for the ladies but it is okay that you want to be gay with me. I am not enraged, why should you be? Whatever your father has said, he is incorrect…”
He wasn’t sure if Kirill was going to start crying or pummel him to a bloody pulp. He never found out. Nikolai, the man Kirill had pointed out earlier, strode up to them and yanked Kirill to his feet.
“We are done here,” he said coldly in Russian. “They are willing to deal with us. Now go and wait for me in the car.”
“What is this? You give me orders now?” Kirill snarled.
“I just cleaned up one mess of yours. I don’t want to have to deal with another until tomorrow. Go.”
And Kirill went.
For a moment Nikolai glared at Alex then he spoke.
“That man you were talking to, you want nothing to do with him. If he gave you a card or a number throw it away. He is a sick and dangerous person.”
It was not what Alex expected, not after everything Kirill had said about his great affection for Nikolai and he found himself even more bewildered than before.
“What is the matter with you?” Nikolai asked. “Don’t you understand? Is your Russian as lousy as your English?”
“I comprehend,” Alex managed to say. “It is only that he said you were his most intimate friend. If that is so no wonder he seemed so alone.”
Nikolai laughed harshly.
“Kirill is a monster,” he said. “I am an even worse monster. That is all you need to know about us. If you are lucky, that is all you will ever know.”
Then he turned and walked out the door.